What if tomorrow never comes?

For how long are you going to allow yourself to postpone your life? No, it’s not other people. It never is, it’s always you! No-one (else) can make you do anything you don’t choose (consciously or subconsciously) to do. It’s always you!!

A hard pill to shallow and most likely you cannot accept that (yet). But deep inside you know….

Sooner or later, our bodies will die. That’s a fact that you cannot deny no matter how much you’d like to. But it’s not the death you’re afraid of. Unfortunately, it’s life and what experiences this life may bring along. Some experiences you welcome, some others you dread. You are taught to stay small, play it safe and essentially…die safely.

But why are you here? Are you here to live or die? You will die with 100% certainty, but whether you’ll live is -surprisingly- not as certain. The norm for most of us is that we do not live our life but a life…someone else’s life.

It’s the opinions and experiences of others, that teach you how to live. Early on, before you could even speak or think, they (caregivers, society) handed you over the ‘manual of life’. And you thanked them, and you followed it to the letter,- you still do-. Afterall, they did this out of love and with the intention to protect you because, ‘they know better’. And perhaps the manual will serve its purpose and take you to your grave safely….but most likely it will also make you miss life in between. That’s the caviar they don’t teach you, this is -sadly- not in the manual. That is a bitter-sweet truth that hopefully you’ll discover one day yourself.

And yes, there is a good chance that you’ll reach that point in life, sooner or later. You reach this crossroad where you need to choose a path outside the norms with which you lived your life up until then. Yet, your fear- your illusion of fear- has grown so big over the years, while you also shrunk so small in order to fit into the guidelines of the manual, that now you feel powerless to change route. So you built up anger and resentment, and you become bitter toward yourself and the world. You blame everyone (else) that showed you the ‘wrong’ way. You blame yourself for listening to them. You blame yourself for being the way you are. You become mad at what happened and what is. But, unfortunately, you no longer have any influence over what is.

Also now you cannot deny what you do know. You cannot deny the truth anymore. Now, you know it! You fucking know it! You know that you do have influence over the next steps, the ‘from now on’ part of your life. Whether you’re going to use this wisdom life brought to you to your benefit or your detriment is now fully up to you. Now, you are not the little helpless powerless, hypnotized infant or child you used to be. You’ve followed the manual but you discovered it leads you away from life. Away from your life! Will you take the responsibility and live life on your own terms or are you still going to follow the manual?

Don’t be afraid to fall, don’t be afraid to live. Be compassionate with yourself so that you can catch you and hold you even if no-one else is around. But don’t worry, You’ll never be alone for long when you live life in alignment with your own personal truth. Your own essence. You are safe! You didn’t have that fear as infant or else you’d not know now how to walk or talk. This is thus, a learned fear. And what can be learned can be also unlearned.

Live for today, not for tomorrow. Allow yourself to live and experience life, not waiting for a time or moment that may never come. Easier said than done, yet this is the natural way of living. Our learned way of thinking and ‘living’ is what is unnatural.

Life is creation, is play, is fun, is joy. It’s also sadness, pain, disappointment, endings and new beginnings. These are all essential ingredients for life.

If you are lacking those ingredients you don’t live. You simply survive. You are numb. You move on autopilot. You follow the manual. A manual you never wrote, you never questioned, you never seeked to update. Please don’t settle for such a ‘life’. Choose to live your life TODAY!

A note to myself….